im starting to see patterns. gnarly patterns.

one layer of nonsense…spread…add another layer of nonsense… life is just a double double. 2x the nonsense spreaded all over the place

people trip me out. sometimes you try to get into their minds and attempt at thinking like them but really-it never works. it may broaden your view, humble your mindset or confirm why you need to keep your mouth shut-but every now and then-to everyone’s nonsense, there is this small open window when there is a time for disruption. hoping the pattern will end, hoping that going the opposite direction is possible and more so that giving it all up to go the other way is the more promising thing to do. but nope, you blink and another layer of nonsense just got added

its tough to love from a distance. even if that distance seems close. i tend to be a strong tower for those who are so distant from me in miles yet i cant even seem to reach some that are walking distance from me. i count it all as loss. i think in order to love whole-heartedly you just gotta count it all as loss 

 i got really discouraged today but i realized that i was more sorry to find myself at that state of mind rather than disappointment to mankind around me-simply because it all starts with one and heck no-i wont be the reason why someone else gave up in life from looking at mine.