So I still can’t get over this theology kick. It’s making me want to fast, pray and break a sweat towards placing all my energy into landing a rich husband so I can pursue my ulimate dream:

Getting my Masters in Theology

A few weeks ago I went to a master’s graduation at Fuller Seminary in Pasadena. This man got up and spoke on how he was from Kenya but felt called to California. He was talking about how in his upbringing he was told to not trust people, to never rely on anyone and that people will only take and steal from him. So he comes to California with that mentality and when he arrived- he felt God telling him to get rid of that mindset and to love.

Often times I feel that way. I can’ claim to have been raised in an intense way of living as one does from Kenya but I can definitely say that I was not raised in a setting where one could feel the presence of God’s love, let alone at times, just a presence of positivity.

I got here to Eagle Rock…in fact I got here: to the world of Advertising and I often times can’t figure out if its the Kenya I need to adapt to or if I came from Kenya and am adapting to it. Either way, both settings do not stem from the love of God yet I know that He has called me to love.

I am here in my career and I want out. I am here in God’s will and I want a short cut. What is wrong with me? God help. All I know is, my stimulation is going into another direction. I find myself bored with mankind I have before me. It’s rather predictable-their behavior, and often times, I wonder- does anyone think I am someone who exudes God’s love? I sure hope so but in advertising- its all up for grabs. Its such a rat race and its so all about name dropping, rump kissing and rising to the top with a bunch of political jargon. Yet, why do I have a sick pychotic love for it? Is it cause its challenging? I guess right…,cause lately the only thing I have been feeling has been dumb. I think I just want to know I am part of a bigger picture. That my actions will not come back void. I think that is where theology comes in- I never feel like my efforts there will come back void, in fact I feel more equipped as I study more.

I just want to see what it would be like if I were in a position where I could just get up and persue a Masters in Theology. Lately, I have had this deep desire to dive into the Word and leaving a 9-5 just wouldn’t be that tough. I could also take it easy since I am technically still working on my BS in Theology…ha!

Jesus, I ask for clarity.

xo