Today Xanti called and gave me some food for thought that I needed.
She brought up that life can suck or be tough but that its just a beautiful struggle.

That indeed served as a reminder that had I not struggle, I may not even know of all the lovely things that God has for me. I also thank Him that through this, I can actually change a pattern in generations. That no matter how jacked up a situation can be- I still have the chance to make things right in my own life.

I think that living alone has made me sit in my thoughts but the actual process of it has been so rewarding and soothing all at once.

I want to be someone who can deal with emotions, with frustrations,sadness and contemplation and most importantly that I can go to God and express all of those knowing He will love me that much more.

I bite my tongue as I confess this, but…

Thank you Jesus for my struggles.